kahwin is scary~?

haven't been writing much.
cuz, well, trouble in love life. sooo, it kinda makes me re-think about this whole marriage stuff.
kahwin is BIG deal. it is FUN. however...

there are a lot of things you have to carefully think through..these are the few aspects that i feel at the moment are important before you tell your mom and dad, "mak, ayah, saya nak kahwin"

1. yourself : are you truly ready to alter your life and make rooms for this stranger that you love? are you willing to negotiate for the rest of your life? are you prepared for the worst case scenario like death and divorced?

2. your partner: is he/she is truly ready? will they like your family, accept them; or will they pretend or make an effort to like your family? do you want them to pretend to like your family or really like your family? will they accept any flaws that you have? will they use your flaws against you? will they let you be you?

3. parents: will they accept your partner as their own child? will they compare your partner with other in laws? will you be able to bear if they judge your partner? will they be truly happy to let you marry the one you (think) you're in love with?

4. in laws: will you be truly accepted? will you feel that you're judged? will you have to put on good performance for the rest of your days just to impress your in laws? will you be on good terms with everybody? will you like everybody? will you be able to trust these strangers?

5. love.money.time.distance etc..

kahwin is a BIG deal. i am scared. i can't deny it. but is is also FUN...if you're truly in love. because as cheesy as it might sound, i believe in the power of love. with love, you can even move mountain if you want to.

with all that is going in life, i want to stay as optimistic as ever, but somehow being human, i do get scared.
i wanna get married. someday. and that day will be totally awesome~! because no matter how nerve wrecking marriage can do to you.. i still would like to be certain that kahwin is fun!